....To my reliefs

is that a word? i dont know but now it is.
first off everyone should find this as...wonderful...as i do LAST DAY BEFORE READING WEEK
yaaahooo, i get to catch up on my reading, sleep, visit a few people that i havent seen in a while, sleep, finally get healthy again, sleep, eat all the goodies ive been and sleep!
reminds me of that very popular song
"schoooolllsss out for, a week..."
i know about a few days in id want to kill myself for all the free time but this side of the holidays and probably on the other end id want just one more day off, and then another, then another
GETTING SHIT DONE isnt that just the best (mentioned earlier in simple pleasure but i figured id mention it anyway because its very relavent. Heavy work week, and i mean HEAVY, but i pulled it off and handed it all in (whether i get a good grade is a different story)
when jello sets, i dont know why but im always nervous and then when it comes out sold i kinda sigh and de-clench

(why am i still typing, content dosent count)

up to this point if youve been following me (and i dont know why you would) this is the last blog posting (before the reading week) and once i click that publish button is gonna feel good, like 50 smokes (by the way, i fell of the wagon, oh well)

anyway, i think im done...i think i need to include links so....im just gonna post links to webcomics that i like to visit....
this is one, this is another, oh heres one, thats a reall good one, and heres a bunch more, thats a funny one, hahah classic....one more....okay another.

...ya thats alot...im kinda a loser ....meh...theres actually more....

I NEED TO SLEEP!

....To growing older

which, ask anyone, SUCKS but growing up is optional. i think the worst thing ive realized about becoming an adult (my 22nd birthday was earlier this month, im not an adult...) is that ive become more cinical
the humor i see on TV is too crude and not really all that funny, watching standup comedians i never laugh as hard as i used to, i cringe every time the get to a punch line...."really?"....
im not touched by sob stories anymore, not that i dont sympathize i just think sitting around bitching and moaning about it isnt going to do diddly for you.
all this romantic sugary stuff just makes me want to throw up (but that could be because im single)
im not as patient as i once was and it takes me a little longer to understand things (namely the interactive assignment is confusing the stuffing out of me Erin!)
and I CANT STAND KIDS, specifically high school kids sporting "swag"
some one needs to beat them with a wooden spoon
god damn i was never that disrespectful and annoying
all in all, maybe im just losing faith in humaity
i think thats long enough for a blog posting
thanks
BYE

...my week from...well..not hell...

every had a day where EVERYTHING GOES WRONG! kind of like youre the walking, talking proof to Murphys Law, "Anything that can go wrong, will"?
well i didnt have just a day, i had a bloddy week of that!
asignments i thought were pushed back were suddenly back on
broke down and bought a pack of ciggerettes
phone died in the middle of very important messages
computer crashed in the halfway through an assignment
getting ill at the most inconvineint times
my glasses broke and i threw out my back shoveling after a blizzard
the list goes on...i wanted to crawl under a rock and stay there but with the mounting responsibilities i felt that would be cowardly
but you know what, its been a few weeks since and im feeling better, and it was an amazing tonic having people to talk to and disctract you long enough to put life back into perspective. even though for most of the day i wanted to stick my fist through a wall i could allways go to bed content.
in hindsight im laughing but thats always 20- 20. i dont know if its my own deluded mind but i feel i could learn from each experience no matter how tedious.
(so behind and the agency i need to interview for plan and prep wont call me back so i wont go into details about "what ive learned")
anyway, anyone who was with me though my time of torment has already heard me complain and ive already thanked them for their patience but....
THANK YOU
(my public part-of-an-assignment-gratitude-that-technically-still-counts-as-a-blog-posting-so-i-can-get-graded-for-it )
well,
ASTA LA VISTA ....(baby)

... To my vices

So...i quit smoking...fuck...i gave my mum my last few to throw away as a symbolic gesture of my commitment. she didn't get it...
Its been coming on for a few days now. It started after i ashed a cigarette in fresh pure white snow. I let it fall from my fingers while i was talking to a few people at the shelter by Cwing. I took notice of where it fell in the snow before i left liking how it melted the snow around it before becoming part of Sheridan's litter problem. A good time later i decided to come back out for another and walking back to the spot i was at before i noticed that the butt i had dropped earlier was now surrounded by a large hallow of yellow joined by several others deposited by my fellow smokers.
it goes with out saying that i was very surprised and disgusted. I always knew smoking was bad for you but seeing it stain the pure white snow just sitting there had a larger effect on my than any pamphlet or lecture.
the straw that broke the camels back came this morning. after id woken up, dressed i moved to the window to wait until i had to leave. just a whim nothing else. i looked down and saw my hands stained yellow. at first i decided that i must have spilled something a vivid yellowish brown but after scrubbing for a quarter of an hour i had to accept the fact that my hands were stained with nicotine. the darkest stains and the most damaged skin around the two fingers on my right hand and on the back of my hands, knuckles and thumb that looked like smoke tendrils.
i don't think myself very vain but it really effected me.
...so now....im trying to whiten my teeth....just for something to do....
i cheaped out and bought an off brand tooth paste for 8 dollars. i only just opened it, it was half empty. i reminded me of those lays potato chips with over 50% air in the bags. and it made my gums bleed
....fuck....i want to smoke....